Thought for the day: Someone…

Every girl has a check list, on paper…in her mind…whatever, of what we want in a man.

We look for these key items, even if we forget sometimes just how important they really are to us when it comes to the long haul.

I have been thinking lately about what I want when it comes to future relationships.

With a handful of my friends getting engaged, married, etc…how can a girl not think about what I want for the future?

I know, like most girls…we just want to find a guy who thinks about our feelings and not just his own. Someone who understands what you are going through when something upsets you.

Someone who loves you for your insecurities…and reassures you you have nothing to worry about.

Someone who loves you for your crazy personality, your random mood swings where you just want to pick a fight, your slight jealousy issues….

Someone who knows when not to say anything…just to let you rant, cry, whatever the case may be…and just listen.

Someone who can read you like a book. Someone who knows when you really are not “fine”.

Someone who wants a relationship not only based on the physical aspect of things…but can actually have a serious, heart felt conversation with you.

Someone who will hold you when you cry.

Someone who sees a future with you…not just a temporary thing until something better comes along.

Someone who tells you you are beautiful…even when you look terrible.

Someone who can handle your disfunctional family…and understands that they will never truly understand what you are going through…but will support you either way.

Someone who pushes you towards your goals…like you do for them.

Someone equally as driven and motivated as you… someone who knows what they want with their future.

Someone who loves you…FOR YOU..and all your imperfections.

Thought for the day: Where will I be?

I hate when people ask me “where do you see yourself in a few years?”

Honestly people…how am I suppose to know the answer to that question?

I don’t even know where I will be come September, let alone where I will be three or more years from now.

Really. Life could go so many directions with me at this point in time.

I could get into law school and stay in London for another couple of years, while if I don’t get into law school…I will need to find a job.

Then that leaves the question on where in the world will I find a job? The US? London? Somewhere else in the world? Who knows!

And I am only 22. I could meet the love of my life, be swept off my feet and move to where ever he is. Wouldn’t that throw a curve ball in my life’s direction?

Haha imagine it!

So many aspects of my life are still unsure…I could go left…I could go right. Who knows at this point.

I am okay with not knowing where I will be in the next year. At this time in my life, I am just going with the flow.

Why worry about tomorrow…when today is not even over?

Food for thought. Think about it πŸ™‚

Thought for the day: Somewhere over the rainbow

I woke up this morning singing this song…and talk about a great way to start off a day!

I mean honestly, what a great motivating song! It is all about seeing your dreams and seeing that there is no reason anything should be stopping you from obtaining them.

I love this movie. I love this song. It is just so happy and positive. Something we should all remember.

So sing this song to yourself today…and realise that YOUR DREAMS ARE REACHABLE…so go get them πŸ™‚

Somewhere Over The Rainbow from the Wizard of Oz

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There’s a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I’ll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can’t I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can’t I?

Thought for the day: Sleep talking at its finest

Yes, I am one of those who suffer from sleep talking.

Maybe it is the fact I talk a lot in general so I just can’t help but talk in my sleep?

Who knows!

Either way.. I do it. ALL THE TIME! Especially when I happen to have someone sleeping in my room.

This weekend my lovely friend Kristen was my roomie. Luckily for her, I had warned her that I tend to talk/walk in my sleep..so if I talked…I encouraged her to take full advantage of the situation and mess with me.

What else would a true friend do right?

Funny enough. I did talk in my sleep. Apparently it was about Uni too. Go figure. I am on holiday and I can’t get Uni work out of my head.

Since we were both exhausted…once she heard me talking. Kristen just said, “Jordan, shut up!” Apparently, all I did in reply was giggle and say “sorry!”

Glad to know I am as chipper in my sleep as I am when I am awake.

I have had many occasions where my poor friends have heard me sleep talk.

Sarah once was sleeping over and I started yelling (at who is a mystery) saying “It’s Patrick Dempsey…NO! It’s Patrick Swayze!.. No body puts baby in the corner!”

HAHA…awesome right? Sarah and I still laugh about it.

I know when I sleep talk/walk. I usually wake up in the morning knowing I did it. Luckily no one really ever witnesses the sleep talking/walking except some lucky individuals.

Suppose there is not much I can do.

I just am a naturally, constant chatter box…day in AND day out πŸ™‚

Thought for the day: Life has a mind of its own

You never know where life is going to take you.

You may think you have it all figured out and then…BAM! Life throws a curve ball at you that makes you rethink your previous plans.

One day you can be perfectly content with yourself and your current relationship status, then all of a sudden, out of no where, you meet someone…who is absolutely AMAZING!

Then what do you do?

You just gave yourself a giant pep talk about being content with being the single girl and focusing on other things besides finding someone…and then this happens?

OR you go all the way through getting your Masters Degree in a particular field…only to get to the realisation that you might have picked the wrong career choice…even though you thought the first one was “the right one” for you.

Now, it’s back to school you go to achieve yet another MA in a different subject.

It will all be worth it though, once you get the job of your dreams and your life one day begins…after the “I will be a student forever” stage.

Life also has a tendency to blind side you with other aspects of your life. In my case, family drama tops it all.

At least I can say, my family is NEVER boring. All I can say is I love them for the disfunctionalness…and my siblings are the cause of any gray hair that you can’t see thanks to my constant root colouring πŸ˜‰

What do you do when life decides it is time to change your course…no matter how drastic?

First I recommend screaming into a pillow…or punching something (preferably not another human being or living creature)

Then I suggest pulling yourself together…and going with what has been brought up to you to change. No point wallowing over something. Just go for it.

I personally think the whole issue with life having a mind of its own comes down to one thing..and one thing only…

God has a sick sense of humour. πŸ˜‰

 

Thought for the day: What lengths will i go to for Chipotle?

Hi, my name is Jordan Weber…and I am addicted to Chipotle.

“Hi, Jordan” *Group of people say in response semi lethargically”

Well, contemplating going 20 minutes by tube just to get it is great lengths right? I mean… I think that sort of means I have a problem. IT IS JUST SO GOOD!

I even have convinced my lovely friend, who has never experienced the awesomeness of Chipotle, to come with me to get some for dinner…and I will pay for it.

That is how badly I have been craving it for weeks now!

To bad I am not still in St.Pete where a Chipotle is literally a 5 minutes drive from my house…and from my work…and really from anywhere I am at any point in time.

That a plus I give to St. Pete…the rest of it….not so much my thing.

I just love Mexican food…and Chipotle is a happy medium between sit-down restaurant and fast food. One step lower than Carmelitas…and two steps higher than Taco Bell.

Yumm yumm.

Nom nom.

Now, only to keep myself occupied for a few more hours until I can get some Chipotle in my tummy πŸ™‚

Thought for the day: Heart breaker is my middle name

I hate to say it…but I feel like I am ALWAYS breaking someone’s heart.

How do you tell someone you only see them as a friend? Without hurting their feelings and crushing their dreams?

This not only applies for guys (my situation) but I am sure there are guys out there who have had the same dilemma when it comes to girls they hang out with.

Why must friendships always be compromised by emotions?

Why must one friend always develops feelings for the other friend…it always messes things up! ALWAYS!

Say you have a certain group of friends (males and females mixed) and then all of the sudden…one of the males decides to like you…and address his feelings.

Now you just sit there like GREAT…THINGS JUST GOT WEIRD. THANK YOU!

So you have to tell them the truth…you can’t lie to them or lead them on..that is just rude.

You tell them the truth. They get upset. Ish gets awkward. Lovely.

It is even MORE uncomfortable when you had a thing with a guy for a bit, but then something like Christmas break comes around…and you don’t see each other for a month.

A lot could change in that month.

You could realise you enjoy being single. Or that he is not the type of guy you see yourself with. Whatever the case may be…the feelings become blatenly one-sided when you come back.

Now the subject has been brought to your attention after three weeks of ignoring any signs that he still may have feelings for you.

AND..to add to the mix. You met someone.

WHY DOES LIFE MAKE EVERYTHING COMPLICATED?

I feel like I am always put in these situations….which end in heart break for the person of the opposite sex who finds me to be awesome and wants more than just a friendship.

I hate this. I have terrible luck…and I hate hurting peoples feelings.

But, I suppose the best thing I can do is be honest….right?

Thought for the day: And so it begins

Its day one of semester two and I am already eating my lunch in the news room.

Ahh the sweet life of a trainee journalist.

Starting off the second semester with TV Documentary…and let me just say. Although David tries to scare us all into thinking we will fail and have no life this semester…I think this class is going to be absolutely amazing.

I will get to show off my skills and personality with making documentaries that interest me. I can put emotion into the project, which makes it so much more fun than just hard news stories.

I think this semester is off to a great start. Minus the eating in the newsroom aspect, but today I was really just to lazy to go to the refectory to eat.

I only have class 3 days. I have great classes! Including sports on Wednesday nights! I can not wait! AND I found a place to dive to relieve stress.

Shame that the diving facility is so far away. Twice a week practices are do-able though πŸ™‚

Man! I feel like I will be a busy girl the next few months.

But as someone pointed out to me last night, I know what I want…and I go for it, no matter what.

Let’s get this show on the road!! Bring it on 2012 πŸ™‚

Thought for the day: Home, Sweet Home

Feels good to be back in good ole London.

As I run around trying to figure out my current money situation i realise just how much I missed this glorious city whilst I was away.

The expensive living. The public transportation. The hussel and bussel of all those around me.

It feels good to be home again.

Don’t get me wrong, I had a fantastic vacation.

Seeing all my family and friends was something I needed… but not for more than a few weeks.

After being away I realised just how much I have made a new family, full of wonderful, crazy people, from all over the world.

I love my London Family.

Seeing some of them last night made my so incredibly happy.

Oh, how I had missed them.

As we sat there and laughed, chatting over a drink in Harrow, it felt like we had never left London. Like we had not been separated for a month.

Nothing had changed.

There is just something about this city that makes me feel more at home than I do in Florida, my real home of residence.

Home is where the heart is.

One of my favourite sayings and its truly has so much truth behind its meaning.

Home really IS where your heart makes it to be.

For me, my heart is in London.

London is my home.

Thought for the day: Love Never Fails

Yesterday afternoon I got a new tattoo. One I have been wanting for a while.

The last year has literally been chaos.

With my parents divorcing, having to switch churches, brother moving to Japan and getting married, me moving to London for grad school…it all is just so exhausting.

Always playing the peace keeper between family members can really put weight on your shoulders…and everyone has different ways of releasing that pressure.

Music has been my escape.

I am one of those people. When I like a song…I listen to it on repeat till I can’t listen to it anymore.

One song, that has really touched me and helped me through the last year is a song by my ever so favourite artist, Brandon Heath. The song? Love Never Fails.

Now, we all know that the verse about love never failing is from 1 Corinthians 13.

However, Brandon did a great job of taking that verse and making it into a song that I will forever remember, and tear up to.

The tattoo I got has some of the lyrics to Brandon’s song…these words outline a cross.

It says in a beautiful, cursive font

“Love will protect. Love always hopes. Love still believes when you don’t. Love is the arms that are holding you. Love never fails you…”Β 

Those words have run through my head multiple times when I thought everything was just going to crash down around me.

Those words helped me to stay strong…

for my mom…my brothers…my sister…my friends.

Whatever the case may be. I knew that with Love on my side..everything would be alright, and I would make it through.

That is why this tattoo means to much to me…and why this song means so much to me.

So, here is the song, I hope you can see why I fell in love with it.