How could I do this to myself.

I even said I did not want anything. Something light,  something casual.
How hard could that be, right?

I mean, I can’t even get emotionally attached to close friends, let alone some guy I fancy.

“I don’t do emotional attachment. Pretty sure I am broken.”

That is what I told him. At the moment I meant it…certainly was not expecting things to change so drastically.

How did this one manage to change the way I think about relationships? Why is he so different?

I mean, it certainly can’t be his slightly cynical look on things, complete opposite of me in that sense.

His honesty is one that most are not used to either. Honesty like this most don’t even have with family members, let alone people they just met.

What is it about him then? So enticing that I can’t get enough. He makes my stomach do that twisty turvy thing.

I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. All I want is him. All day every day.

All I can do is scream at myself , “YOU LEAVE THE COUNTRY IN JANUARY! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”

My subconscious is right. What have I gotten myself into?

Leave it to me to fall, and fall head over heels, for someone who lives an ocean away from where my actual home is.

I mean, Florida is my home, but London will always have my heart.

And now, along with London, this Brit has a piece of my heart… and I don’t plan on getting it back any time soon.

We may fight and have different views on many things, but none of that matters.

The fact of the matter is, I love him.

**to be continued… this is something new I am working on as a side project. hope you enjoyed it :)**